My Year in 2017

2017....Quite a year..

..I have to look at it that way, or I just cry.

It seems as though every time i think I am finally getting over one Obstacle, another is thrown my way....now I realize, most of the Obstacles I am putting there, with the Stupid decisions I have made.

This tumor of course was not my doing, LOL....yes I have to laugh, because you just never know when something is lurking and waiting for you, and then, BOOM....there it is and all you can do
is just deal with it....Faith of course is always right there, of which I know I have always had,
otherwise I could never have gotten through any of the events in my life.

Now it's been almost a year since Everything seem to crash around me Again....But
I'm still here, the only difference now, is I have to work so much harder to get to where I was almost a year and a half ago...both mentally, physically and emotionally.

I don't realize my own limits at times, so I push....and well my body pushes back HARD...
I feel as though if i don't get up and do things, that I'm giving up....when I know in the back of my mind, that isn't the case, it's has become apparent to me in the last 4 months, that I am not and will not be the same, no matter how much I push myself....and there lies the problem, I GET ANGRY...
at myself, and the world.....

I realize a little more every day, just how blessed I really am to still be here, and I'm grateful,
but the Anger is still there, I just have to learn how to deal with all of this, I know it will take time,
but I will get there.

Hopefully things will get easier, and when I look back in another year, I can breath a big sigh of relief and smile.

Peace